“Eventually everyone begins to recognise, however dimly, that there must be a better way. As this recognition, becomes more firmly established, it becomes a turning point” - A Course in Miracles.
In 2014, I was working as a family lawyer in Sydney, Australia. I had just qualified as a lawyer after many years studying and working in the legal industry.
My 18 year old “dream” of becoming a lawyer had finally been realised and yet I had finally realised that this was no longer my dream at all.
I don’t know where this realisation first came from. I thought I enjoyed the stress. I enjoyed the work. I enjoyed the responsibility. And as much as I kept telling myself that, it did not ease my feeling of unfulfillment. It did not stop me from seeking happiness through instant gratification (over-drinking, over-eating, over-socialising and over-working) and distracting myself from my true feelings.
Why did being successful in my career make me feel like a failure?
My real motivators have always been (and still are) that I wanted to help people and make a meaningful contribution to the world to make it a better place. But I was not living a life aligned with my true values and desires and so I felt lost, without direction, without any purpose, like I was nothing.
In the midst of all of this, my partner suggested we should make the overseas move we had always dreamed about. Scared, but excited, knowing this might be a chance to figure out what I wanted to do with my life, I said yes!
The universe will sometimes provide the direction you need and this was the first step. I said yes and found myself open to looking to ways to change my life. As I prepared to start this new phase of my life, I became frightened and anxious. Some health concerns flared up, but this actually led to one of my most important steps on my journey of discovery as a friend recommended a podcast called The Lively Show to help me with what I was going through (check out my interview with Jess here).
Our darkest moments, can be the best opportunities for change.
I was so taken with this show that I set about listening to all other episodes and was introduced to a plethora of possibilities that I had never considered. My curiosity was piqued by this online world of entrepreneurship, mentorship and coaching and it was here that my love (obsession!) for learning about alternative lifestyles, health & wellness, personal development and philosophy began.
This spark, gave me the confidence to start imagining life outside my current life. I knew by then that the corporate world was not for me, but I wasn't ready to make that leap yet. Within a few months I moved to the other side of the world, left life as a lawyer and was determined to discover my purpose.
This time I took a role as a consultant. Although, I adored coaching lawyers through their career moves, I knew that corporate life was not the best place for me. I was hungry for freedom, for independence and for my own purpose-driven, conscious business.
Moving away from my friends and family and everything I had known, although challenging, was actually a fantastic opportunity. I had never realised how my time and way of thinking had come from people around me, rather than from my own values and desires.
For the first time, I began to consider what my values were and understood that achieving traditional markers of success, like becoming a lawyer, are not what bring you happiness. I began to understand the power of environment and the energy of those you spend your time with.
I adopted many useful tools to feel better (like appreciation, choosing my thoughts and feelings, meditation) and connect me with my purpose (like looking at what I enjoyed doing as a child, bringing more pleasure into my life, connecting with my inner guidance and understanding my unique skills and abilities).
Each day I followed my curiosity, becoming interested, passionate and alive again. I focussed on becoming a more loving person, surrounding myself with people who inspired me and bringing as much joy as possible into my life.
In 2016, I felt a clarity and excitement that I had not experienced in my adult life. As if overnight, everything became clear to me: I was going to help people create a life they love, a life they enjoy and a life they felt inspired by.
I decided now was the time to take that big, brave step to TRANSITION FROM CORPORATE TO CREATIVE AND TO START MY very OWN ONLINE purpose-driven, conscious BUSINESS.
I cannot begin to explain just how thankful I am to my past self for making this decision!
Yes, it was scary as hell. Yes, I have had moments of doubt, of challenge, but I have also never experienced the joy, happiness, meaning & zest for life that I have today.
I got everything I wanted and more.
I believe the more people we have living a life they love, enjoy and that they feel inspired by – the more we improve the world and make it a better place. When people are happy, joyful and contributing to the world in a way that matters to them, the more loving we are to ourselves and each other. Peace.
Now I have fallen in love with myself and because of that I am able to give my love to others… and receive love. Instead of dimming my light, I am now able to shine it brightly and by doing so, reflect all the light around me. That is my purpose. That is why I am here. And this website is a space for me to share that light and I hope that by doing so I am able to reflect the light within you.
Lots of Love,